UGH

I don't feel like finishing the other post yet lol. A lot of shit in that one. I slept like shit last night. I kept waking up for one reason or another but for some reason I still woke up before the sun rose this morning. I didn't go to the gym for the first time in a while. This allowed me to troll fb this am. In the post to be completed later I go over my dinner with C. Well regardless I got a message from her this am apologizing for being a bitch and apologizing for all the drama that happened in HS. I haven't replied yet. I don't know how yet lol. She confuses the hell out of me. I honestly just want to be civil with her but part of me is asking why the hell do you even want to deal with that shit.

I hope this bank shit gets figured out soon. I'm down to living like a college kid with no job and it fucking SUCKS. Can't do anything, it's a struggle to find food, and all of your responsibilities want stuff from you at the same time. UGH.

The situation has become friendlier which is nice. I don't know where I was going with that.

Today looks like it is going to be a long day at work. We'll see how it goes.

I'm ready to go out and get my fucking confidence back. Being a lump on a log fucking sucks. I'm ready to go rule the night again. I wanna go cause trouble. I wanna get all cute and wing for the bro. I really got to get better and working for myself but I'm too good of a wingman to give that up. Matt owes me big time. Between M, S, and J he coulda had a decent relationship 6 times over. I can't do everything for him lol. W/E.

Till the next time....

Interesting

It's been an interesting time living since my last post. Round 3 happened at Club Shindig and man did it suck. The night started out fine but shit went down hill FAST. H came over with her dorm mate which I was totally cool with but everyone was giving my shit saying how I shouldn't have invited her and all this ish. Whatever. The last thing to happen with H was when she got high as hell and she was a bit tipsy. I told her to go to the bathroom so that I could talk to her because her friends were already talking about leaving and I didn't want her to leave. She also was in no condition to drive anyways. Some molesting went down but then she got all nervous so we left. Being funny I walked out of the bathroom with my pants half down. Heidi and April gave me ish but w/e. We found out there was a 15 y/o at the party so I had to deal with that. Matt dipped and left with Sarah. Bex was drunk as hell. My buzz is already gone and then I realized that there are like 40+ people in my house and started freaking out. I sat at the top of the stairwell and started controlling the music. L gave me her bra (she was quite drunk) and requested a foot rub from me. Not less than 15 minutes later she was worshiping the toilet. It's w/e. Took us like 4 hours to clean but its all good but never again shall we mix age groups like that.

We helped EV move into his new place. I swear to g-d I am not having kids until I have a decent place. Babies smell I know but damn dude do you ever clean that child? Regardless we got him all moved in and I met Jess. She's alright just kind of demanding. Reminded me a lot of Ex-C.

Found out my Itunes account got hacked and caused me to lose a hella lot of money. I think I already posted about that though.

EV's bday party was alright. We showed up at 4 and he wasn't there till like 8. It's all good Matt and I made good impressions on Kayla, April, and Jess. Once EV showed up the drinking began and dear jesus these people can't hold their liquor. Kayla's BF got so drunk that he couldn't walk. April's BF and I had to carry him to the bed. Man was that fun. But I gotta hand to EV for raising Jess' kid and preparing for his otw. Props bro. Don't let your wife and kids totally steal you away man.

We also had a board game night which was pretty sweet besides the fact that EB showed up. Matt left for a chick which I didn't like at all. like WTF bro I don't see you for a few weeks and then you ditch our plans for a chick? Fuck you. When he came back he stole EB which was cool but still. We were up till like 4 just playing games. It was nice to see Jeff again. Haven't seen him in a couple years. Reminded us all of our middle/high school sleepovers. Was super fun. Brandon D. is super cool too. We've been chilling more often.

I haven't seen a lot of people in a while. Once I get this shit with the fraud straight I will make a point to go see these people since no one wants to come see me. Seems kinda ass backwards doesn't lol. I just want to go out. You never realize how much you miss it till you can't do it.

I'm not sure what's going on with my brain lately. Like I'm loving school but I'm not sure if I want to finish. I just don't see the point sometimes. Gotta keep my head up though. GOtta show Phil what's what.

I am going to make an effort to blog more often. It helps me get shit off my chest. Matt's great but I can't just be like yo listen to me bitch. He'll tell me to just get a beer and walk it off and beer doesn't solve most problems though lol.

Mom's dating a 24 y/o and a 48 y/o. Kind of interesting. She's jumping through guys like it's a sale at Macy's. I don't understand her sometimes. I really don't like the 24 y/o. He's a d-bag and tries to act like we are buddy buddy. I wanna be like bitch you're my fucking age with a chick who has 4 kids and one your age. You don't find that to be creepy. He thinks he's bad ass too because he works for verizon as a call center dude. Bitch you dropped out ECPI. Don't tell me you are the best thing this world has seen. I mean you're not the scum of the world but you're pretty damn close.

I wanted to finally finish this up because I was tired of looking at it. There are so many things I could add to this but it's just the same old shit. Good Luck to living.