Bring it on

IDK I just realized that I didn't go to sleep. I mean I realize that LOTR is interesting but how the fuck did I lose track of that much time. Maybe it's due to my nap yesterday idk. I kicked my ass yesterday. I only worked out for an hour but it was definitely more irritating than I thought. Jessi definitely didn't mention anything about no working out lol. It's all good. I was gonna go this morning but I don't want to tire myself before going to work. I'm probably gonna go after work. Even though I should probably take a day off I can't. It takes my mind off things. If even for a little while.

After talking to Caroline she thinks that I should go for it. I'm not entirely sure that I should right away. I've got to give it time. I mean I want her back but I'm not ready to make myself vulnerable again.

I miss her. I miss the feeling that she gives just when she says hi. I miss feeling her next to me. I miss having someone who I can always count on. I miss looking at her beautiful face. We are so right together.

I mean I have definitely changed with this time off. Realized that I've got stuff that I need to change. Realized that I suffocate people. Realize that I get addicted to anything. Realized that I can live on my own. Realized that I talk to myself a lot. G-d I feel like I'm back in HS blogging everyday. It was nice though. It let me get my feelings and thoughts out when noone else is there.

Loving Pop Evil. They are pretty banging and sure as fuck are musically stating my feelings right now. That homemade video to Stepping Stone really got me.